It feels so silly to feel so run down but as my wise husband reminded me this morning, world events can really take it out of you. We are lucky enough to have been able to work through the covid-19 pandemic. We both work at a nursing home so we have a good amount of job security. But going to work with the ever changing CDC and MDHS recommendations can make it stressful. The admin at our job likes to implement new changes on Fridays at 2 pm… my guess is so they don’t have to actually deal with it until Monday… but what do I know. We’ll see what new ppe or procedure they’ll put in place tomorrow when we go to work.
All things considered though Manny and I are quite blessed. That said, we’re not impervious to stress. Manny usually deals with his by powering down his brain for a little bit and gaming or if it’s bad enough he talks it through with me. I’m a little different. I can talk it through til I’m blue in the face… and sometimes I feel like that’s exactly what I do but stress seems to have a very physical toll on me. I get so very tired and achy. Cliche as this sounds, the best self-care for me is a bath and a nap. So, even though I got perfectly adequate sleep last night, I’m still tired so I’m going to take a nap. When I wake up I’ll take a bath and work out some of the kinks in my muscles.
With states beginning to loosen up regulations the world seems to be preparing to go back to some semblance of normal and yet so much feels completely changed. Between all the PPE we wear at work and the need to wear masks in public, the world feels like a very changed place even though the changes have been fairly small. I’m not sure I can take much more inflammatory news media on top of all the changes at work. All the stress gets carried squarely in my back and neck. The end result has been headaches, lack of sleep, extra soreness from tense muscles. There have been some practical things we could do to help all of this. Badly in need of one, we bought a new bed that sleeps like a dream. We also ordered new shoes for at work. A good foundation helps with all the rest. And of course, we’re gearing up to start keto this next week.
This has been our last week of eating the standard american diet, starting Monday we go keto. Sunday night we’re going to go to our local 24 hr grocery and stock up on what we need. We like to shop in the middle of the night as there are considerably less people out and about and we’re up that late anyway so why not! I’ve been working on our shopping list. It’ll be a pricey trip but in the end I think feeling good in our bodies will be worth it.
I know there wasn’t a ton of new stuff in this one and I went completely without any hints or tips today but I hope this post was enjoyable to read and finds you all well. Feel free to drop a comment with anything you’d like to see in the future. Much love and as always take care and God bless!
Yesterday’s post was something of a bonus given that we had made such a big decision for our life. So bonus, you get two posts this week! Yesterday I went through our cupboards and pulled out all things high in carbs. There’s one box set aside with things I know my sister and her kids can use but then there are two partially full boxes full of other foods. One box holds unopened items that we can give away or donate. The other has items that are already open, we’ll eat what we can in the next week and then we’ll offer to our friends. Whatever they don’t want we’ll toss.
The benefit of keto is that we’ve both done it before. We know how we feel when doing it. For me, I know that the first month is pretty brutal. Keto flu is no joke. The headache I’m about to receive is almost enough to make me reconsider, but in the end it will be worth it to be healthier.
We’ve been trying for nearly the entire year that we’ve been together to eat healthier. Smaller portions, healthier choices while still honoring the need for foods that although maybe not healthy are very satisfying like chocolate or potato chips. There’s something to be said for satisfying that need to enjoy salty and sweet. And I know what you’re thinking; doesn’t keto rob us of that? Well, yes and no. There’s no cheating on keto. If you cheat it can take weeks to get back on track and put your body back in ketosis which is the state it needs to be in to burn fat instead of sugar. Once committed, you’d better be committed else-wise you’re wasting a lot of time and energy. When I did keto before I found I did not crave foods the same way I do when I’m eating sugar. I have found that I enjoy the foods I do eat so much more than when I’m eating whatever I want. Suddenly cheese crisps are the saltiest most delicious crunchy snack on earth! And keto sweets are like an oasis in the dessert!
I must admit I’m really looking forward to doing this. A year ago now I was at the lowest weight I had been in my adult life. I felt good and energetic and young. Now I feel every single one of my 31 years. My body is stiff and sore and worn out. I can’t wait to reclaim that energy! And as an added bonus, I can’t wait to feel pretty in my skin again. I know that weight loss is not the magical formula to being happy, but from experience, the way I feel when I am a little bit thinner is very helpful to making me a happier person. It’s the healthy side-effects. Neither one of us is shooting for skinny. Manny jokingly said the other day that between the two of us we’d like to lose a high school girl. Meaning, I would like to lose about 50-80 lbs total, and Manny would like to lose between 70-80. Add that up and you have the weight of an average high school girl. Crazy to think that.
As I was cleaning out the kitchen yesterday I picked up a ten-pound sack of flour and held it in my hands. How much better will I feel when that amount is off my body? It’ll be fun to see how each 10lbs makes a difference.
Tonight’s dinner is a simple nearly- no- cook meal. Manny was craving a wedge salad so we got salad fixings. I personally think there is nothing worse on this earth than iceberg lettuce so I’ll be having a cabbage and greens salad. I know, it sounds weird but it’s got a magnificent crunch. I’d love to say we’re being healthy but between blue cheese dressing, craisins, and some bacon I’m going to crisp up it will be far from healthy. It will however be super yummy.
What’s your favorite salad topping? Let us know in the comments and as always take care and God bless!
So Manny and I like food. A lot. I should think that is pretty obvious from all the blog posts about different foods and such. We enjoy cooking and planning meals as well as eating. And I would first like to take a moment to say THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT. The trouble comes in that we aren’t so great at moderation.
Truth be told moderation is a little bit of a trigger word for me. I have struggled off and on with an eating disorder since I was fifteen, in and out of treatments and therapy since i was twenty-one. Ever so many well intentioned people have told me to just eat in moderation and all my food related problems will go away. There’s more wrong with that statement that I have time to unpack today but for now we’ll just say this, eating in moderation is simple. It isn’t easy. And never have I ever actually been able to make it work in a healthy way that doesn’t cater to my disordered thoughts.
I recently hurt my back. I slept funny and then went to work and now I’m hobbling around because my back hurts so bad and I don’t have insurance because I’m still on probation at work so I get to just try to help it myself and can’t find a chiropractor to help. Manny and I had a thought yesterday though as we were coming home from our shifts and I was feeling particularly miserable, both from pain and from needing to take the next shift off in order to rest and not further hurt myself. Our realization was simple, excess weight has a heavy toll than just being heavy. Would my back still be sore if I were a bit lighter? We both struggle with sore feet; him with tendinitis in his heel and me with plantar fasciitis; would we still struggle with these pains if we weren’t putting so much strain on our feet? We aren’t getting younger. We want to be healthy to enjoy our lives and to be able to have nice long lives with one another.
So today I went through the kitchen. We have both done and had success with Keto in the past. I understand this isn’t everyone’s cup of tea but it has worked for us, we understand it, and have had success with it so we are going to use keto to jump start ourselves into weight loss. We aren’t putting a time limit on this, for us we are making the change for the foreseeable future. This is a lifestyle change we are making in order to be healthy. As such this blog will reflect that. I’m sorry if this means our recipes won’t jive for you anymore.
Moving way slower than I would like because of my sore back I went through the kitchen. There are three boxes on the counter now full of carb-heavy foods that we’re going to give away. We agreed that since we are feeling motivated we need to just jump in and get going, that there is no time like the present. So here we go. This is the next journey for us. We hope to see you for more recipes and posts in the future. As always, take care and God bless.
I have been absolutely absentee since going back to work! I’m so sorry! Finding time to write when it isn’t automatically carved out for you is a lot harder than I expected. So here’s what’s coming with that. I finally got my permanent schedule for work and I should always have Thursdays off by myself. So you know what that makes Thursdays right? Blog day!
Last time I mentioned that Blue (our computer) had one foot in the grave and another on a banana peel. Well, he bit the big one. Given how much I write though we decided a computer was a necessary expenditure. So we got a new laptop! Yay! I’m still getting used to the keyboard bu it’s so nice to have a computer that actually works the way it’s supposed to!
And lastly, we did a thing this weekend! We had been very bummed out about having to cancel our wedding and reception due to Covid-19. Of course that wasn’t going to stop us but it was sad to watch months worth of planning go down the drain with no more finesse than dirty bath water. So this weekend we were able to get the stars to align; my parents were off quarantine and our pastor was available so we decided to just do it and on Sunday we got married!
My parent’s (especially my mom) went above and beyond and created the most amazingly beautiful set up for us to get married. They decorated the house, mom made us a lovely meal and a delicious cheesecake, and even put together a bouquet and boutonnieres. It was the smallest wedding imaginable, with only my parents, the pastor, and of course Manny and I. But you know what? It was extremely special and we’ll never forget it, that’s for sure.
With that, I’ll just say more to come soon and as always, take care and God bless!
Holy cow it has been a craaaaaazy couple of days! I’m so sorry I haven’t updated but now I definitely have things to say! So Monday morning I woke up to a phone call from my sister. She is dealing with the aftermath of a fire in her apartment building that happened a few weeks ago. Technically I still live with her even though I haven’t actually stayed there since… September? August? It’s been a while. So anyway, I still had a bunch of stuff at her house and she was calling to ask if I could pretty please wit sugar on top get my stuff out of there because the clutter since the cleaning crews went through is driving her batty and in exchange… no more rent through the last three months of our agreement… well, I’m no fool, Manny and I ate some breakfast, got dressed, and went to pack up all my stuff and move it.
My sister is flapjacking amazing by the way, she let me keep some stuff in her garage… and by some stuff I mean most of my stuff. And my nephew really pitched in. See, the room I was in is now his room and he is very excited about it. In order to speed up the process he helped carry stuff down to the garage and out to the car. He spared my asthma and Manny’s back and was generously rewarded with the new xbox game he had been hoping for.
And what should appear on my phone in the form of a very exciting text? A message from the job I had originally had lined up following leaving the shelter! The situation that had made it look like the job had fallen through had resolved itself and they were able to once again offer me the job! Tuesday was spent cleaning out my car, grabbing the last of our apocalypse groceries, and hauling stuff up to the apartment from Manny’s car from the day before. Today I went in to fill out paperwork and tomorrow I start for real.
What does that mean for here? Well, what it means is that I won’t be updating daily anymore… of course I didn’t do so well that that so maybe it’s for the best. Tomorrow I’m supposed to get to discuss my job schedule so I’ll know better after that what days I’ll be able to post on here but right now I’m thinking a “life” post on Tuesdays and a recipe on Fridays each week. I’ll let you all know more as I can!
Stay safe in this crazy world, my friends. Comments are always love. And as always, take care and God bless!